Jun 3
soooo embarrassing to get obsessed w a specific character when no one else gives a damn. like yeah heres post #574934. heres au idea #26482. heres art piece #9383. yes its all about the same person, yes i am rambling in the corner blair witch style. feel free to shoot me dead for this btw
#cherry thoughts#me posting anything#but mostly about cole lately </3#its just. having a really obvious fave is so humiliating T_T#especially to minimal response. it feels like everyone is doing that awkward party meme#cries.........#edit: so many ppl in the tags misunderstanding my post </3#i was more commenting on the constant feeling of alienation when it comes to fandom/“communities” online#the way posts will get 3 likes 0 reblogs max etc. the humiliating part is trying to connect when no one wants to play w you#not the Being Obsessed With The Character to begin with. thats cool and awesome!#the “when no one gives a damn” is meant to be loadbearing but i didnt write it well lol#like this is a ha ha post dgmw but at the same time many ppl are not really getting what i mean#OH and dont even get me started on the “keep going!! <3 youll find your ppl :)” comments#like.. yeah i guess. fair enough. but the point up to that is really what im talking about. the part where no one cares !!!!#and btw! ive been on tumblr for over 10 years and STILL havent found my people. so like. erm ur tellin the wrong girl lol#i cling to the hope yes but can we acknowledge how much the loneliness and embarrassment in between just straight up SUCKS?#anyway idrc but if anyones here reading ops post well. hey hi hello :P
